You can’t rush your healing
“You can’t rush your healing” - Trevor Hall
These words speak to my own healing journey so much.I have healed on so many levels so many different things. Emotionally, Physically, Mentally. My nervous system has completely rewired itself with the work I have done. I am healthier than I have ever been in my entire life.
I still have more work to do, and I have more healing to do. I have overcome the major obstacles in my life. Yet my healing journey is still evolving as I go deeper into myself.
The reason why I call it a healing journey is because it is about the journey and not the destination. It is so easy to get caught up in the final results when suffering from big things like sexual trauma, chronic illness or pain, depression or anxiety.Those are the things I have worked through and still work within my life on some level.
“I just want to be better.” “I want my life back.” “I want my body back.” “I just want to get back to the way things were.”Are all things I have heard myself and the women I work with say again and again.
When we go through a deep healing or transformation of any kind we are forever changed. Why would we want to go back to the way things were when that is what kind of got us here in the first place?
It takes a lot of variables to add up to a place where we have that breakthrough, and things are never the same again. Often its multiple things that we change in our lives that create that breakthrough to healing and we change and grow in the process of it all.
Healing, to me, seems quite cyclical. It has its rhythms.The more that we can accept that, the more relief from our suffering we will feel and find.
Not one healing journey is the same. Which is why I have never found a one size fits all solution to any dis-ease we are experiencing no matter if it is physical, mental or emotional.
With any challenge, we also find a lesson and growth deep within our very being. This is how we learn to love ourselves and get to know ourselves on a very profound intimate level.
I often pray for all of us who have been through the toughest of experiences that we can find peace in our grief, relief through feeling it all, healing through growth and acceptance through the exploration of the journey.
If you are in the midst of a healing crisis or at rock bottom of your suffering or in denial just to cope with the pain. I feel you, I have been there, and it is not easy. In fact, it is fucking hard as shit!!!!
Day by day, breath by breath we keep going even if we feel like we are just surviving. We survive. Because that is what it is to RISE. We do what we need to do, the bare minimum some days, and on the days that are easier, we do more.
Healing really is a process of recognizing that we are whole even though we are broken. In some traditions, they don’t believe we need to heal we just need to come back to ourselves and remember we are whole and perfect even in the chaos, drama and fucked up shit.
I for one love the word healing, because it has a gentleness to, is and I feel that when we are willing and open to the healing that needs to happen, when we take those steps, ask for help, commit to it and keep going, in healing, we find the tiny miracles that make it all worth it.
For now, I will leave you with a mantra that I love to sing and chant to comfort me in my darkest moments. Because even when it seems like my journey with chronic pain is never going to be over, or memories of abuse will never leave me, or when I feel depressed yet again, I know that my commitment to healing is serving more than just me.
lokah samastah sukhino bhavantu ~ May all beings everywhere be happy and free, and may the thoughts, words, and actions of my own life contribute in some way to that happiness and to that freedom for all.
Here is the beautiful song that Trevor Hall wrote and sings. It is a song I play often and put it in my yoga playlists as a good reminder of the journey I am on; we are all on.
Trevor Hall “You Can’t Rush Your Healing”